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[Sunday, October 22nd 2:42pm] |
Ok so my first day at Bik Sky is going to be the 24th, the day after thanksgiving meaning i'll miss that but whatever. I wanted to take a train, but the only stops amtrak makes is way up north and i'll be down south, so than I figured a train to shelby mt, than a bus to bozeman and than a shuttle to big sky..... apparently no where in montana is there a city with both a train station and a bus station...... suckage, so than I was contimplating renting a car and droping bridget off in illinois, but than I found a bus for $133.oo with only 5 stops, from portland to bozeman, and than it will only cost me 70.00 at the most from bozeman to big sky..... so its going to cost me only $193.00 at most not counting food to get to montana, right before thanksgiving when every other travel prioce increases by like 200.oo...
im sad I dont get a train, and my ipod wont last....... no walking room either......... damn............
im excited
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[Thursday, October 12th 11:16pm] |
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I have a frigging sewing pin in my stomach..... I swallowed it. http://www.amazon.com/Quilting-Pins-Size-18-500-Pkg/dp/B000AM2MVI/sr=1-13/qid=1160709250/ref=sr_1_13/002-8319071-3132815?ie=UTF8&s=kitchen on of these, its like two inches or something, sharp and has a ball on the end. I was cutting out quilting squares because Bridget is making me a quilt and I had the pins in my mouth because thats what I do, most quilters do it, andways I inhaled fast and swallowed one. I was waving my hands at Darcy Aaron and Bridget telling them im choking on a needle, they shush me and Aaron tells me I cant be choking if im talking. I explain to them that no there is a sewing needle lodged in my throat. Bridget tells me to drink water. and because im freaking out and no thinking I listen to her. I than tell Bridget to get cassie from jays, but bridget didnt do that because she could hear them having sex from outside, and I say no go fucking get her..... apparently no one could understand the importance of having a frigging needle in me. Aaron tells Darcy to get her car and than they bring me to the er, now im one who giggles and laughs when shes nervous as fuck. When I broke my leg on table rock and 30 plus people got me and I was scared I couldnt stop laughing the whole time, making nervous jokes, they even called me giggles. Anyways so we pass cassie from the window and tell her whats up but she sees me laughing so figures its nothing. Go to the ER, Bridget says I should just sleep it off and that its a waste of her time. I make her try to call Cassie, because Aaron and Darcy had to go to portland and I get really nervous in doctors rooms, I mean I thought i was going to die from simple leg surgery. we didnt know jays number, so she calls Todd, the operations manager at my company (its the only number in the phone book we could get because the shops were all closed and he would have the number) anyways he was awesome and could tell Bridget wasnt being suportive and asked me if I needed someone else there and that it was ok to say yes because bridget couldnt hear what he was saying. He offered to come down or to send leisa (human resourses manager and his wife) if I perfered a girl. I told him I was fine as long as Cassie came or someone besides bridget. Anyways I have a needle in my stomach, it has cut up some of my chest iternally, nothing to bad the doctor said,m nothing my body couldnt handle, but it hurts. Its now in my stomach and because it has a ball at the end of it, that ends heavier so it has turned and should go down my track that way so it should tear up anything else although it may. I have to go back every day to take more xrays to make sure it doesnt get lodged because than i would require surgery or a tube. Im kind freaked out, like I dont want to make any sudden movements. Coming home, bridget called shot gun, ummmmmmm hello, and cassie wasnt going to come at first because she already took her sleeping pills, she only came cause bridget said she didnt want to walk that far home. Although cassie didnt understand the size of the needle and again she saw me laughing. When cass and bridge saw the xray they gsped because the needloe is rather large, i cant stress that enough. Bridget keeps saying there bigger because there quilting ones.
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[Wednesday, October 11th 6:32am] |
Im going to Montana, im going to Montana, im going to Montana.
Big Sky Resorts called me earier and this girl in the accounting department told me she saw my application and pulled it imediatly for herself.......... the kicker, she thought I had a degree in Buisness, the truth: I only majored in it for less than a year. I set her straight and she still wants me in her department. I would be doing accounts recievable, reports for the corporation ect, audits, ect ect. Its a 8-4 job 5 days a week. Meaning I would be in the adult world, for the first time in my life I would have structure...... thats nuts. I have no real interest in this job really, I mean I never had a desk job and really thats okay with me, I perfer customer service. I would take any job if it means finally going to Montana. I mean you have no idea how long ive wanted to go there, ummmm since 4th grade. She asked me if I liked to ski, I told her I love it......... I dont ski, I fall, but whatever Im going to learn. Im going to Montana, Im going to Montana...... woot! Well they are going to check my references and what can I say I knbow I shall get glowing recomendations, Todd the operations manager of the corporation I work at now already told me he would give me a horrible recomendation, so im able to come back and work for him in 6 months..... that litterally made my day =). I have to go shopping for grown up clothes now, I mean I dont have buisness atire, hell no............ hmmmmmm. this job makes me feel incredibly young right now and childish lol.
I know you cant tell right now, but im drunk off my ass. I dont think I have ever been this drunk, in all my life. Agniska wanted to make all of us a Polish meal, so we turned it around and had a surprise birthday for her, well I had no intentions of drinking but with montana I felty like celebrating. I drank a lot of Vodka and Orange juice. We played wiffle ball, for the second tinme this year..... fun fun fun, its funner when drunk. I dont totally recall but im starring at my blue recliner rght now, and I vividly remember falling over in it.... hmmmmm and another chair. I also broke my bead, while talking to Cassie......... yup I was the only really trashed one here. I also recall getting laughed at when digging through my purse throwing my stuff all over the floor looking for cassies keys. I had fun. I was forced to be tucked in.
I have to play tennis at 8am.......... im gonna be so hung over its not even funny. I also puked last night. See I was dared to drink a gallon of water in an hour, i deemed that stupid since anyone could do that. So I said I would do it in ten minutes. I did it. I was violently shaking for 5 or 10 minutes after that, my teeth chattered like crazy, I was wrapped in a blanket on the couch with the heat turned up to 90 afterward. I was sooooooooooo cold. I have been in a habit of taking bets lately, its weird for me really. The other day I was dared to eat a cracker dipped in our trap at work, I wont even tell you how nasty that is.
Im typing amazingly well being drunk, probubly better than when im sober....... im proud of myself......
im telling you this job reminds me of "dont tell mom the babysitters dead" where she worked a 9-5 job, a job she lied to get, a job that was way above her head. Im not going to lie im a bit nervous considering I have no idea how to do this job im getting, I have no experience, I only have taking one accounting class in high school. Granted I was one of the best students in that class but there were only 6 of us. Oh golly gee wiz, im nervous as fuck............................... im going to Montana, im going to Montana........ by myself too, I have never been of the eastern sea bound except to go to Italy and Ireland, and that was with people. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I have to finish watching "A river runs through it" now. I also have to find a Monatana book, the local bookstore had nothing, the library only had a kids book, and the Elsworth bookstore only had A Montana/Wyoming book that has no pictures and basiclly only gives you hotels to stay at.... I bought it just the same solely for the fact that it was the only Montana book I could find, but it was a huge waste of my money.
Im going to Montana, im going to Montana......... i dont think any of you realize how excited I actually am right now.
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[Saturday, September 30th 7:15am] |
Bridget Bet me I couldnt drink a gallon of milk in one hour. I took her bet. Well I drank a half gallon, still had like 40 minutes or something left when I looked down and saw small white chunks floating in my milk......... I freaking drank a half gallon of curdled milk. Oh man did that upset my stomach, I couldnt finish knowing it was curdled, I wanted to puke just looking at the milk jug............................... This morning my stomach still hurts and my head feel weird. Plus Bridget repierced my ears again, because the day after I let her last time my earing fell out and she couldnt get the earing back in. This timne I made her use a disinfectant. Yes she still tried to use a blunt object to jam and wiggle it in, but after screaming I made her go to a safty pin. Who uses a flat object to try to pierce someones ear. My right ear was bleeding so much, it was gushing. Cassie lynn got it with pictures. Actually Bridget would get it half way in, with the whole digging and proding and wiggling part and cassie would tell her to wait and start over so she could get a better picture. I wanted to punch her lol.
Oh on a side note because apparently I have failed to mention this yet. I went Skydiving. I jumped out of a freaking plane, and the best part was I was barely nervous at all. Not once did it come accross my mind to not do it, to back out. It was the most thrilling amazing thing I have ever done before in my life........ fucking incredible. It didnt last nearly long enough. My aunt and my friend Sheena both want to take lessons with me to jump by ourselves.............. amazing.......... you should all do it!
And yes I do find it sad that I am able to jump 10,400 ft from a airplane but can not put contacts in my eyes.
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[Saturday, September 23rd 9:25am] |
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Ok so tomorrow is the day I skydive. Everytime I have said I feel nausious about it was a lie. It has yet to sink in. The only time I felt any emotion for it was when I found out there was a 40% chance for rain, that was it and I cried my eyes out. When is it going to kicking in that im doing this. Im excited, but I figured I would be more excited than this, more scared or nervous.... something. Today I go back to the eyedoctors to get contacts hopefully. I went to the eye doctors monday because my coworker kicked me out of work. I was burning myself all day on the stove, I through cinnamon rolls into the air on one burn.... I knocked over a large true blue bee, all over my pant leg and the floor. I ran into our mapple display, breaking 50+ dollars worth of maple syrup and finishing sauce and autumn shot glass. Do you know how much of a mess maple syrup makes? anyways not having my glasses has sucked. So I went to a eye doctor monday and the guy was rude as fuck, sketchy as hell, and the result was me leaving with out contacts almost in tears. He left me mid session to go home in a huff, he didnt even tell me he was leaving, left me to his secretaries who were so sweet. They gave me a dvd to bring home and practice touching my eye. He was telling me to watch the contact go in my eye, so I couldnt do it, he even grabbed right ahold of my eye and the contact and tried to force the sucker in. he did not releave any ease. anyways so on the video it says to look up at the ceiling, that works let me tell you, the doctor should have.... jeez. so yeah now I have to go back and see if I can get a contact in my eye.......... thank god I dont have to work with him. I let Bridget pierce my ear last night....... owwwww I figured she knew what she was doing. I had filled in holes from when I was liek 7. My left ear she could stick an erring right in. My right was more tricky. So she iced it up a little and than took a erring and precieded to jab me in the ear. The back of the earing was flat..... not sharp at all, so it hurt like fuck........................ why didnt she use a safty pin? man oh man did it hurt.
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[Wednesday, September 20th 8:33pm] |
im so sad, when i got a new hardrive I lost all my programs, and now i cant watch gilmore girls cause I have no tv and programs to download =(
Plus I was imformed its supposed to rain sunday, skydive day......... I was crying earier because I was so distrot. For some reason ive been chemicly unbalanced for the past week or so......... crying, bitchy, just weird. I havent felt like myself, and Ive felt depressed, its just weird.
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[Sunday, September 17th 10:33pm] |
I just put a down deposit on my life. Sunday, im going skydiving....... yikes. Thats only one week away, one week before my life is over. So little to do, so much time, strike that reverse it. I have to be there at 8am.......... Im excited but my stomach is doing massive flips right now.
nervous much.
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[Saturday, September 16th 11:31pm] |
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So my glasses broke today at work, this sucks. Ive been toying with the idea of contacts.... easing my way out of the eye phobia, but in no way shape or form am I ready for them yet...... and now since I have to either go contacts or glasses because I am not spending money on both. This sucks, plus I dont have my perscription or even remember where in portland I got it so that means I have to go to the eye doctor, wich makes me want to puke. They do the glocoma test at the eye doctor, and well I dont like things coming at my eye............... oooooh I feel naucious. Plus the computer screen is all blurry, and blurryness gives me a headach. Last night was long. My roomates mom called at 12:30 am to find Darcy, because Darcys brother was in the hosputal. So Bridget and I went out looking for her, couldnt find her, than we ran into a girl that bridget had met last month. She had bruises and cut marks all over her neck and face, said her ex boyfriend tried to kill her. She was so drunk she could barey walk. Bridget and I brought her to the police station, than left to find her friends. Her friends basicly washed there hands clean of her so after she went to the hospital for an examination the cops brought her to our house to sleep. That was at about 3 Am. So basicly I didnt get to sleep till 3:30, 4. Than we were suppose to bring her back to the police station this morning but before we woke up she had taken off. Plus bridget had taken sleeping pills before darcys mom had called so she went to sleep while I waited for her friend to be dropped off, I just met her that night.
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[Friday, September 15th 8:47pm] |
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I wish skydiving wasnt so expensive..... everyone agrees to go with me until I tell them the price......... ah well I guess Im going myself.
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[Thursday, September 14th 2:50pm] |
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So Today Sheena and I went on a 4 hour kayak tour. It was soooooo much fun. We went 6 miles and it was gorgeous. I had so much fun, It was by far my favorite adventure this summer. I cant wait to do it again. Right now im looking up skydiving. I really want to go. Im going to do it too...... yup, Ive decided its going to get done within the next two weeks. Probably living in Bar Harbor this summer, taking a course online so I can teach abroad next winter, and this summer im either staying in bar harbor or working in montana. Either way I have to save the money to go overseas for the winter.
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[Tuesday, September 5th 11:48pm] |
My lesson of the week 'never take any pills from your roomates'..... I took two of Cassie Lynns sleeping pills, at 10pm... I was on the couch and she was talking to me and my head apparently just tipped forward and I was out. Her and Darci tried waking me up to get me to bed and I didnt budge. I slept till 12:15 pm the next day (thats 14 hours) when I had to litterally force myself to get up, like I could barely move, I was wrapped in a blanket my eyes all swollen, laying on the couch. I called work to see if I could be late but apparently they were busy so after Cassie asked if I wanted nodoze (shes a walking pharmacy, she pops two or more sleeping pills a night and doesnt even feel the effect), jay if I wanted herbal tea, cassie again telling me to take nodose I forced myself up the stairs where I crash in front of the closet door. cassie comes upstairs to see me laying in front of the closet. It took me so long just to get dressed. I show up to work, and everyone just turns and looks at me and asks whats wrong with me. Basiclly IJ couldnt fully wake up for another 4 or so hours. I was dead. My eyes were swollen for most of the night, I felt like shit, I wanted to curl in a ball and sleep in the corner. Than I stayed up till 2:30 am making fudge. This morning I Had to open the store at 8am, and I was dragging, than I worked till 10:30pm because I was coverning bridgets shift so she could pick her mom up from the bus station. my sleep patterns are so f'ed up. I slept really good when I took the pills, I mean I slept so dead, I dont think I would have budged for anything.......... Im so tired right now, and I have to wake super early hopefully im able to sleep. Im getting massive over time this week, and killing myself in the process. I made fudge kissed candy apples at work, plus two new flavors of fudge..... bannana nut and graham cracker cheesecake.'
mmmmm.
Damn I want to sleep, after 14 hours youd think id be over this kick.
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[Friday, August 25th 9:51am] |
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I am so freajing screwed. Im not the type of person to get in to trouble, to act like an idiot and do something wrong knowing its wrong, exspecially at work. I did I huge booboo at work, sheena and I, thinking it would be funny. Todd (the retail sales manager/our step in manager) found out before I could tell him and is so pissed, swearing at cassie lynn..... Hes amd at me and dissapointed in me and its all my fault. I was the supervisor so it all comes on me, and it should. All because of a stupid greese trap. I want to puke right now.
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[Wednesday, August 23rd 11:25am] |
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I touched my eyeball..... I touched it, I freaking rock my own socks off. Im slowly getting over this eye phobia of mine, it took me a good 10 mins to actually touch the eye, but I did it just the same. Im so very proud. Im thinking of contacts thats why im getting over this thing of mine..... Sheena rolls her lids back and it doesnt bother me, she even touched my lashes and pulled them up and it didnt bother me...... oh, oh yeah!
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[Monday, August 14th 10:25am] |
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this sucks... i feel like my head is going to explode. todays my day off and im stuck in bed sick...... bridgets sick too except shes puking every hour, god i hope i dont get that bad. last night i worked for her because she was puking than all of a sudden it hit me, i felt light headed and my face felt hot and god does my head kill, and my tummy. my eyes are watery and it sucks. plus my back hurts because my roomate exiled me to the couch so she wouldnt get sick. worse part is Kevin was going to teach me and bridge how to play tennis today, so we could have a doubles match.... bullocks. i wish it would stop hurting, i wanted to go for a hike today too......... and i really better be better by tomorrow because i am so not missing any work over this shit!
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[Tuesday, August 1st 9:30pm] |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDSAY!
Its about fricking time, I thought youd never turn 21 lol.
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[Sunday, July 30th 7:40am] |
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I went swimming yesterday, i8t was so much fun. I went out the night before with my roomies and pretty much got ditched but had a blast of a time, First night I had been out in a really long time. So we went to this "secret spot" as in a lot of townies know about it but no one goes....., its right on the beach great rocks to lay down on and its just beautiful and again there were only a handful of people there as opposed to the million at sandbeach. I didnt have a bathing suit so I went swiming in my bra shorts. Cassie ditched me in the water because she saw a crab by my foot and freaked out, it was so funny. I practicly fell on my ass I was laughing so hard, than there was this red ant incident that was hystirical. I also learned that apparently Cassie calls me Marty..,... that creeps the hell out of me. How have I never heard her refer to me as such? Ohhhhhhh I have to go to work...ick. Im working 8-6 at the country store than 6 to 9 at AO... filling in for them so they can go on there company dinner golf thing...... I wish I was going golfing, i love mini golf. Were going to play tennis which is awesome, I have to get my racket from home, and get this super cute tennis outfit I saw at walmart for dirt cheap........... oh man got to go byes.
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[Thursday, July 27th 5:30pm] |
Ok so I did my hike, and this time I finished it without woosing out in the middle, without having a breathing attack and no inhailor around. So I did Bear brook trail up Champlain mountain than I took the south ridge trail down (most goregous view on the whole island, breath taking) than I did The Bowl and than up and down gorham mountain. All by myself, everytime I go hiking now I beem, just because im so damn proud of myself for being able to get over the afraid of heights crap and after being scared to death to hike cadillac that first time with Sheena, telling everyone goodbye and that it was nice to know them because I was going to fall to my death. Tonight we were suppose to have a girls night because my roomate Cassie is having a terrible month but her old flame called and shes seing him tonight so now im bored so I might go to the gym...... Im not going to beable to walk in the morning my legs are going to hurt so bad lol. I took three rolls of film while hiking, and ran out..... cant wait to get them developed. My next purchase sshall be a better lense with a huge ass zoomn..... I'll need one when I got to thiland.
I think my computer smells like patruelie..... my new roomate wears it and its nasty, she only used my computer for 10 mins yesterday, how can it possibly smell so much................... im so grossed out, I'll have to pick up nose plugs.
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[Wednesday, July 26th 5:05pm] |
ooooooh im making a post, and guess where from, thats right my fucking laptop. Its fixed, i had to get a brand new hard drive so I lost everything and its back to factory settings but damn does it feel good to type on these keys, I love my laptop. I almost didnt fix it, as in I was seconds away from selling it to the kid I had working on it for like nothing. Im happy. I still hate my roomate, she never really took blame for breaking it, instead she pointed fingers at me. Its pretty dumb had she have apologized and offered to pay at least a portion of the 175.00 it cost to fix it we would be friends right now, I wouldnt even have let her pay a dime for it. Awww well.
I get to go home next week, im pumped. I miss my family. I took a sleeping pill last night and slept for 12 hours..... nuts. Tomorrow im going hiking, actually im redoing a hike I couldnt finish last week because I forgot my inhailer and had a huge ass asthma attack on a mountain, by myself, it was rather scarry.... I perfered breaking my leg and getting carried down by 30 something people.
I want to go camping, like actual camping in the middle of nowhere..... this will never happen but I really want to.
Yays im back!
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[Wednesday, July 5th 10:49pm] |
Its been crazy at my apartments lately. My roomate and her friends Broke my computer, my laptop that I worked my ass off to buy, the one I slept in a wet tent all last summer to beable to pay for. Never really apologised. Not only was it broke it had cig buts encaked into it, tons of them, as in 16 cig butts were found in our apartment the next day, our company housing that doesnt allow smoking. Plus there was underaged drinking involved and the cops came up because the underaged girl was mooning pedestrians out front in broad day light from our apartments. Anyways from than on my roomate because psyco a little, she actually told me she was going to get a restraining order against me.... what a joke. Plus she pretty much stabbed another of my friends and one of her so called friends in the back. Its just a all around mess, Ive been sleeping downstairs on the couch for the past week. Cassies caught in the middle. Sheenas been kicked out. Its nuts. The worse part is my roomate who broke it treats my computer as its a big joke, mostly because shes never had to work for a damn thing in her life, it royally pisses me off. The only reason the laptop was even downstairs in the first place was so she could use it, than she had the nerve to put blame on me. Plus what she did to shena is freaking unforgivable she flipped it. Her personality has gone a bit skitzo. Im a tad bit bored right now, I should go to sleep but I know I'll just be woken up in 40 mins when my roomates come home.
Night yall!
Hope you had an amazing 4th and are having a great summer.
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